Monday, March 1, 2010

Who you callin' a clown?

I’d like to tell you a story of a sad little boy who thought life was not going his way. No matter what his better judgment was, no matter how much he knew better, he still found himself in a rut of disappointment, impatience, and irritability.

“Was that little boy you Tony?” said the random voice needed to make a point.

“Crap...okay, yes it was.”

As I have said before, I write not only because I feel I am called to write about the random stuff that burrows into my melon; but I also write to confront my own hypocrisy. I find at times, I will deviate from my core beliefs and no matter what words of encouragement I would tell you all in undesired or unfortunate times, I can often find that I kick myself when I am down. I find I seem to favor my strong leg when doing so. What is most frustrating is that I know better. As I have stated before, “my biggest fear is not my inability to practice what I preach, but my inability to become aware when I am not doing so.” Last month did not help.

Due to the gelid Midwestern blast of winter we endured, my business suffered. Kind of like what I figured the first night in prison would be like. The weather was off, finances were off, people’s moods were off, and the physical pain I endured shoveling “nature’s fluffy white blanket of marshmallowy goodness” confined me to sofa-surfing on a couch atop a heating pad. It is not age, it is mileage.

As one of my past posts "Snow Lonely" mentioned, my friends online and in RL (Real Life) gave their support and laughter. I joined a gym (still going), and as I mentioned near the end of one post "It starts with a single step", I decided that if my perception and chosen motivation and momentum could allow me to feel better about my circumstances; I queried, “What would happen if I shifted this positive mindset to more areas?” Ah, grasshopper, now your kung fu is good!

Since that post, here is a brief rundown of some of the simple events that have transpired since that chosen thought shift that for some silly reason, I decided to leave on my spiritual shelf for far too long.

As many could probably tell, I like writing. I say, “I am a writer, now my job is just to let everyone else in the world know that.” I have a book written, awaiting an avenue to release. Do I go traditional, or self publish? I am working on both. We’ll see. I also contribute to other outlets as well; one of the outlets being Movie Planet, which again I have mentioned earlier in a post. By a happenstance of serendipity my friend who is a renowned movie critic called me out of the blue. He often travels to major cities to attend movie junkets with some notable people and movie stars I am sure you have all heard of. His job as an on-air personality at a television station disallowed him to travel to the most recent junket due to ratings sweeps, so guess who he asked? No not Gene Shalit! The sad little boy mentioned above.

Long story short, after much preparation to go to New York City (all expenses paid) and stay at one of the cities’ finest hotels (*cough* Waldorf Astoria *cough*), and interview the celebrities, my trip was interrupted by natures fluffy white blanket again. A "Noreaster" I thnk they called it. We tried for hours to get me in to no avail. The flights into New York were all cancelled. An hour after the cancellation call from the airlines, I received a call from another studio to invite me to stay an extra night, (expenses paid) to watch and review yet another film. Oh well, looks like a Blockbuster night.

I was a little disappointed, but then started the shift. I realized this “sad little boy” was invited to go to a one-of-a-kind event, in a fabulous city, and it was because my friend believed in me and my skills enough to send me to the event. Life was (and is) pretty damn good. He assured me there would be more opportunities. Maybe this could be the one that got away, but I had as much fun fishing as landing the fish. I was happy to be on the radar. (So many metaphors, so little time.)

That afternoon, I received on my phone, a confirmation that I had been accepted by I applied to become Columbus Ohio's Spirituality Examiner (reporter) for the large website, and if I play my cards right, I may make a couple bucks. Not quit your day job, retire on a yacht wearing a Speedo bucks, but bucks none-the-less. Boo-yah! Another atta-boy from the cosmos! This glass half-full stuff was working. (My first submission got rejected, it was considered too “bloggy”. I find that a compliment thank you very much!)

Sparing you the minute things I notice all day long, I see how the Law of Attraction is working tangibly for me. Call it perception, serendipity, coincidence, B.S., placebo, whatever! I find that if I feel better, things are teetering more so in the favorable, I am all for it. Funny too is how a lot of this was leveraged by a recent purchase of a book on CD about the Law of Attraction. I like to believe it was placed before me at the right time.

I notice I no longer awaken seconds after my alarm with an expletive. I do not “look” for where my pain is going to be today. The workouts (even though only a handful in) have helped me stop making “old man noises” when I bend over to put on my shoes. Business is picking up, and the snow is melting. People are in a better mood and so am I. I don’t know if I have gotten better at sucking in my gut or I am losing weight, but I plan on looking good this summer. Don’t worry; no Speedo. Still same old weather, still same old hurdles, still same old scenarios, but now confronted with a guy with a Patti Labelle sized New Attitude. I suggest trying it on for size.

Finally, as I logged onto my new Examiner account today, I noticed something really, really cool. I made twenty eight cents! I am now a professional writer baby! Heck Yeah! I have been told that I will not make a dime by writing and I can tell them where to get off as in my first day I made almost three times that! Heck Yeah again! I know I have a long way to go for financial abundance, but baby I have momentum! I have movement! If I only make enough in my writing to buy a cheeseburger, I will enjoy it as the best cheeseburger I ever ate. I will reflect that I earned it by following my passion, shifting my focus into a positive state, and I hope I never forget that I truly am the luckiest redneck at the rodeo! Giddyup!

*Shameless plug ~ knowing how we all enjoy a follower or two, if you are so inclined, please stop by my Examiner Page. If also so inclined, help a brother out and subscribe or RSS. Maybe I'll get that cheeseburger. Bless you all! 


Timberwolf123 said...

Awww Tony Congrats life is funny & I've found the universe to have a great sense of humor. I'm sorry for your troubles with going to NYC it sounds like it would have been a lot of fun. The examiner thing is only the beginning, you do realize you've turned a big corner here & although there may be setbacks the truth is you're on your way my friend.

I'm happy for you & I'll sign up for your examiner feed when I'm done.



P.S. Didn't know you were in Columbus we're almost neighbors...I'm in Indy...hope we can meet sometime.

marci-me said...

yay for you Tony!
.28 cents ! you gotta start somewhere

I signed up at Examiner on anything that allowed me to sign-up.



Momma Fargo said...

I awarded you today. Go see.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! So happy for you! And now I'm headed over to your Examiner site. :)

Marika utomjording(extraterrestre, alien) said...

you are really funny!

you really deserve 28 cents...continue like this!!!

Tony Anders said...

Thanks to all of you for your continuing support! I appreciate each and every one of you!
(@ Timber - since I am a "soccer Mom", if my daughters' team makes it to the Indy finals this year - I will have to look you up!)

Anne said...

I love your frankness about struggling to find the positive side of things. Your post proves that, indeed, we have to make a conscious decision to be positive. Once we take that first big step, the other steps seem much smaller. Yours certainly did! Thanks! (and will check out the Examiner link:-)

Bossy Betty said...

Congratulations on your new venture!

Melissa said...

I have faith you will be able to one day buy a cheeseburger with your earnings. keep on keepin' on!

Healing Morning said...

Congrats on all of the above, Tony! I left you a comment on your FB post about Examiner - I started writing for them in summer '09. Btw, they got me for "being too bloggy" w/ my first article submission too! And like you, I didn't take that as a negative.

It is wonderful when the opportuntiies begin to appear on the horizon; even more wonderful when we realize we're part of that process. Recognize it, embrace it & continue thinking in positive and allowing terms & things flow. Doubt it, embrace negative, "poor me" mindset and everything bogs down and forward momentum halts almost instantaneously. Easy to suggest, challenging to strike that balance each day!

I'm experiencing baby steps w/ forward momentum on my end too, and am thrilled with it. The fun part is all the surprises God/Universe hands you along the journey. Writing in career, I have found, seems to find ME, rather than me finding it - I'm always surprised w/ how it manifests. Keep us posted - I think you're doing GREAT!

~ Dawn

Barbara E Brink said...

Congrats! Paid to write. It's what we all dream of. Good luck with your new gig and getting in shape. Both worthy endeavors:)

kbxmas said...

Stopped by and signed up for your feed. Congratulations. Today the Examiner, tomorrow.... who knows??!

TirzahLaughs said...

Exercise starts with a single step but then the walking never stops.


And clowns scare the crap out of me.
I think I saw IT one too many times.

IT's hard to be positive sometimes but you do what you can do.


Tracy Westerholm said...

I think we can all relate, I sit here with my lemon hot water in hopes that it stimulates my digestive juices so I can have that extra snack at some point today. My fear is that we don't have the snow and I could wake up any day and find it beach weather!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am simply not ready for the beach, I need my massage therapy to kick in so my IT band doesn't hurt on my leg so I can start running again! *groan, sigh*. Thanks for the laugh this morning I so relate to what your feeling ! Tracy

bren said...

From one writer to another... your Blog makes me smile. Never heard of will have to check it out.

Congrats... seems to be you're in the flow and moving right along ... at the right place at the right time ... learning to Be who you were born to be in each situation; through becoming aware it is important to choose the attitudes which bring about positive flow.